10/6/2015

AM
4 sets of:
6:00 bike easy
3:00 Balza rehab of choice

PM
A. Power clean, build to a touch and go 2RM
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For 18:00
1st: 8 alternating pistols
2nd: 12 fast push ups
3rd: 1 double overhand axle deadlift + :10 static hold @top, heavy
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800m walk cool down

AM
complete

PM
A. 190 (cleaned 200 for one but failed the second rep)
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complete
scap push ups instead of regular push ups
170# for axle DL
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complete


Merrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I am no longer good at power cleans. These were all terrible. For some reason I'm second guessing my set up and overthinking it way too much. I'm trying to engage all the correct muscles when I set up and I think it's throwing me off. I know I'm going to have to retrain basically every set up for every lift. Everything was really easy up to 185, then things started going downhill. I cleaned 185 once and it was really heavy so I went for it again and I caught it super wide. Usually 185 is no problem for me at all. I went to 190 and did that for a double, I caught the second rep REALLYYYYY wide, it was so ugly. I almost called it there, but I decided to just go for 200 because I wanted to prove to myself I could do it. I caught the first rep pretty easily but the second rep was basically just a pull, it wasn't high at all. If I'm being honest, I almost had a meltdown after this. I feel like I'm becoming worse at the things I'm supposed to be good at, my squats cleans were terrible on Saturday and my power cleans were awful today. It's not that I can't move the weight, but for some reason I'm not confident in my set up or confident walking up to the bar anymore. Usually I can look at a bar with 190 and know I'm going to lift it with no problem, but today I was like "ehhh 190, I hope I can hit this." It was very frustrating. I think my overall confidence has gone down a lot over the past few weeks from not being able to do anything overhead. I'm not really doing things I'm good at anymore and it's making me sad. Rant over. 

The EMOM was okay, pistols weren't as solid as last week. Deadlifts were also a bit harder than last week, my grip was slipping a lot sooner. I did scap push ups instead of regular push ups just to keep drilling the shit Balza wants me to be doing.