1/5/2016

AM
4 sets of:
6:00 bike easy
3:00 Balza/Drew rehab pieces of choice

PM
A. Back squat, 4-3-2-2, 20x1 building so only last 2 is tough (still not maximal) 2:00 rest
B. Muscle ups, 10x3 unbroken, :60 rest
+
3 sets for even times:
36 row calories
24 wall balls, 14 to 10'
12 CTB pull ups
3:00 walk rest
+
2000m row @Z1

AM
complete

PM
A. 205-225-240-250
B. complete-ish, got through two reps into the set of 9 and ripped so I called it
+
4:14
4:21
4:30
+
complete


Today started off pretty well and ended very badly. 

Back squats went really well today, 250 was solid for two reps. The second one was a bit slow on the way up but I was never concerned about failing. I wasn't sure if I was going below parallel so I filmed myself (video) and I was surprised to see I was going WELL below parallel. Not sure why I thought my squat was so shallow. These felt good though. 

Muscle ups weren't as good as last week, some sets were caught straight but some were caught in a dip. I made it through two reps in the ninth set and then I ripped so I called it there. These were okay today, not great but not terrible. I think I'm going to work on some transitions with a band because I really want to nail the straight-arm catch.

So errrr the row/WB/CTB piece went very badly. Like, it was terrible. I had no energy to do this, I can't explain it. I felt totally fine through the back squats and muscle ups, and once I started the aerobic piece I basically just gave up. So I guess I CAN explain it, I was just being a little B. My row was pretty slow each set. My wall balls were TERRIBLE. I think I broke at least two times per set and I rested a long time between sets. Austin said I looked really sluggish. The CTB were a mess, my hands were raw from all the muscle ups and I could barely hang on to the bar. I was finding it impossible to muster up the energy to do this, let alone do it well and perform it how I know I should. What is going on? I couldn't force myself to do anything. 

If I'm being totally honest, I cried after training today. I feel like I am becoming an athlete I don't recognize really. If I think back to the summer, I was so energetic and had no problem pushing myself to the point of pain every day. I was all jazzed up from regionals and all those competitions. Now I feel like I'm just going through the motions on some of these workouts. I know I should be doing better. I feel like I haven't done anything impressive or anything worthy of being on a regionals team. I'm glad this competition is coming up soon because I need it. I need to compete and have a fire lit under my ass, because right now it's not there.